Blogopolis that is. It is only 3 sleeps away. And I am getting more excited every day. I am nervous too. Friday night the event is kicking off with a gathering of attendees. Many of us have never met before. And I find those situations particularly frightening. How will these people respond to me? Will they accept me for who I am? Can they overlook the lecturing manner I tend to adopt when I am feeling out of my depth? Will they forgive the inevitable foot in my mouth?
I hate it when I attend events and the other attendees develop cliques. I was never one of the popular girls at school, always the odd ball loner. I tell myself that it doesn’t matter. But it does. It hurts to be alone. It hurts to be lonely in a crowd. Especially when you don’t know how to break that loneliness.
Today I am opening up some of my deepest thoughts and feelings, exposing my inner self to all. Maybe they will stay here. Maybe by Sunday they will be gone.